Day 58

Daily distance: 4.5 miles
Weekly distance: 13 miles
Training distance: 304.04 Miles
Pace: 10:17
Time/Temperature: 12:30 p.m., 47, Cloudy
Weight: 145

I noticed when looking at my marathon training guide that this entire week is an easy week.  After this week it steps up the mileage even more and I have multiple 20 mile days.  My joints hurt and I am over the training.  The mileage isn't insane, but the running day after day with no breaks is stressing me.  I enjoy it and yet I struggle with it a lot.

I am reading Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert and I am on her portion where she is praying in India.  This portion is reminding me a lot of my friend Keith and all the amazing life lessons I learned from him while he chose to interact with my life.  He used to talk about how we were like tuning forks.  How we were in each others life for a time being to propel us through a part of it or to another part of it.  The connection I had with my friend Keith was unlike anything I had experienced. He helped me out of such a dark place after the demise of my marriage and gave me light.  He introduced yoga and meditation and living in the now to me.  He was strength and peace for me at that time.  I recall him explaining and then me googling "soul" connections and how it is said that they typically are just for a time.  While this makes me sad and I mourned Keith leaving my life abruptly for a very long time (and still miss his presence), I understand.  I understand that some things are the most powerful forces in your life and that sometimes those exact things are temporary.  That if they were to stay, perhaps chaos would ensue or damage could occur.  That they are for a purpose, a time, a season.  

My thoughts on running during this time resonate with that thought process for some reason.  It makes sense inside my mind but I have tried to explain it here and keep deleting it.  *smiles*  My running, the book I am reading and my thoughts of my friend Keith are all connected on a deep level for me.  I will make it through this time of training.  I will seek whatever lessons it has for me.  I will enjoy the journey of this time as it propels me in to a new time.  I will appreciate the lessons, the joys, the struggles.  

I will be in the NOW.