Day 47

I often have people send me messages about my transparency and how it is appreciated.  Thank you friends.  I will continue to be as transparent as possible.  I have struggled with my mood for years now.  I get down and unmotivated.  When that happens I have a hard time staying motivated.  I don't need anyone to over read that.  I believe that every single person gets down and out and lacks motivation.  Surely I am not alone.

My knee has been hurt and it has stopped me from running.  I have eaten horribly.  Too much food and poor quality of food.  I have had multiple days where I have not put in full quality and effort in my workouts.  We all go through this and it isn't unique to me.

What is unique for a few of us in the world is that we won't let it stop us.  I may pause and I may have to pull myself up by my boot straps so to speak.  But I always do and it is just a matter of time.  I have felt down the last few weeks due to a few issues I have had going on and dealing with.  Rest assured though it is just a pause and not permanent.

I am going to go on a 30 minute run today and I pray that my knee holds up well and doesn't hurt.

It is that lovely time of my month when I retain a bit of everything...so my weight is higher than normal.  But I had gained back 5 of the 10 I had lost.  I will lose it again.  Try...try again...try yet again until you read your goal.

Weight: 149