October 7, 2015

When I am snap my daily photo and when I post it I often cringe.  I have always envied girls with pretty bellies.  I have never had a smooth flat stomach that looks good in a two piece.  I have been overweight most of my life and had three pregnancies where I put on more than average weight.  Then I suddenly lose weight which just deflated me.  In addition to all of this certain people that have been in my life that should have uplifted and encouraged me and complimented my body put it down instead. Verbally insulted my looks and build to my face when they were supposed to express love.  I say all of to say that if you are reading this blog, I am not putting my daily pictures out there to gross you out.  I am putting them out there so I can see my own progress and so that I can hopefully learn to embrace all that I am.  I most likely will never have the money or put the money towards a tummy tuck, so it is a part of me.  One that I feel very low about.  I know that I can't be the only girl out there with this problem though.  I know that there has to be others that are humiliated and it just isn't fair.  

Anyways, I was just thinking about it tonight when I snapped my picture and almost cried.  But God loves me and finds me beautiful.  

Weight: 147.2

Workout was insane!  Ty had me doing a lot of three minute sets of things.  I was able to complete all but the last two sets of three minute exercises before I literally ran out of time.  

Run:  40 min. relaxed run.  2.57 distance 11:40 pace

I am so sleepy tonight.  A lot on this mind!